Bloody Barbecue & Photo Solicitation

My period started just over a week ago (on October 4th) and behaved very oddly; no cramps AT ALL (I might have had five seconds-worth of sensation that made me think I might get cramps), no big chunks, a very slow start . . . and a weird color. Instead of being purple-red or brown-red, it was orange-red. Almost like barbecue sauce smeared on my panties (normally a more plum colored or blackberry syrup color on the not-totally-RED-red days).

I've never seen anything like it.

The only thing I can attribute this to is that I started taking iodine supplements a few weeks ago because I suspect I have a sluggish thyroid. I've not had time to research it thoroughly, but haven't found anything anywhere describing orange period blood as a side effect of taking extra iodine.

I really feel the need/desire to start soliciting more flow photos just to create a library of what women's menstrual fluid REALLY LOOKS LIKE instead of still relying on vague, subjective descriptions for us all to try to figure out what is normal as though we live in fucking prehistoric times. Actually, I'll bet women knew more about what other women's periods looked like in prehistoric times. Now we do such a good job of hiding it we have no fucking clue. Of course, if I did this I'd have to make sure people know how to set the white balance on their cameras otherwise it would do no good color-wise (though would still be useful in documenting the amounts, consistency, etc.).

Periods & Pain Sensitivity

It's just an off-hand remark with a non-period pic, but Dacia's started right before she got work done on her tattoo and she thinks that's very bad timing.

I seriously believe that in preparation for your period, your blood thins. I don't know if I've ever read that being the case or not, but before my period starts my nose starts getting bloody (I don't get bloody noses, my boogers just get blood in them) and my gums are more likely to bleed. Maybe an increased susceptibility to bruising goes along with that?

Any women who've noticed something like that or anyone who can provide links backing this up (or directly refuting it) please comment. I also wonder if Dacia bled more while she was being needled or if it just HURT more.

What Failure Looks Like: Exhibit B

As many of you know, we've been trying to get pregnant for over a year now which means that every time my period starts it's a reminder that I have failed to get pregnant.



I took that picture of my cozy period panties with fresh new blood, pussy stains & hours old blood back in December after a particularly sad start (we'd hoped we'd conceived near Thanksgiving when I'm sure I ovulated; my period started after I'd been SO SURE I was pregnant and had spent time lovingly decorating our Christmas tree, thinking it would be the last Christmas we'd have without kids and looking forward to sharing a tree with them in the future.

After the initial disappointment, though, I remembered how much I love my period. It felt like my body was comforting me with warmth and color and proof that I'm alive and working properly inside. Cuddling up in bed with my period and two hot water bottles (one for my crampy abdomen and one for my feet) was the perfect treatment to feeling shitty about not being pregnant.

If I can't be pregnant, at least I can have my period. That's pretty nice.

Read more about how I feel about this on my (in)fertility blog with Exhibit A.

Pink Spots, Not Lines

My period just started, all damp pink spots like barbie tears this time.

Here's the low-down on how I'm feeling about not being pregnant. Again. Still.

I am wearing a pad and picked out a pair of sheer mesh panties to do a shoot in, if we're feeling like it in a few hours.

Started

My period started today.

Not the happiest thing to feel/see/experience when I hoped I was pregnant, but after a good cry, some comforting from Delia, and eating some treats with hot tea, I'm okay.

I'd swear that my flow is heavier right off the bat than it has been in years, but who knows. I'm taking pictures of my spots, stains and leaks for a gallery and documentary purposes, and I have to admit that in spite of the disappointment, my body feels really good. A bit crampy, but nothing horrid. I feel warm and healthy and I can't help forgiving my womb and reminding myself to trust my body's wisdom.

I just put on a huge Kotex. For comfort as much as for absorption.

Glory Be!

My period just started this morning.

Looks like Goddess Glory and I are flowing together; she describes her cramps and treatment of them HERE.

We're babysitting my nephew so I doubt we'll be able to shoot any content this time around, but I do have an hour-long webcam show scheduled tomorrow (Sunday, August 26th, noon Pacific Time) for members of my main site, TastyTrixie.com. If you can make it, you'll probably get to see me masturbating and menstruating at the same time towards the second half of the show. Members will want to go to the LIVE SHOWS page for access.

I did have some pretty strong cramps this morning, but they passed fairly quickly so I only had to endure about a half hour of grunt-worthy pain. I feel pretty splendid now, very warm and buzzy.

Not a Moment Too Soon

My period (finally) started last night, and not a moment too soon. If my PMS had gone on any longer I'd have had to who-knows-what.

The timing of my period starting was kind of funny; I recently added a new weekly webcam chat session over here on Rude which I call News FLASH!. If you're a long time member of mine you already know how it works, but basically anyone who shares a current event in chat earns the privilege of requesting I "flash" a body part to them on cam. Boobs, ass, and pussy are the most-oft requested body parts so when my period started a half hour before the chat was due to start, I knew I'd also wind up flashing either a) blood or b) a tampon string.

Since I didn't feel like putting in a tampon so soon before bedtime (and I also wanted to observe my flow carefully since it's the first period I've had since going off the pill) I wound up flashing my pussy to the viewers in what first appeared to be a very tidy fashion. Until, that is, I started SQUEEZING my pussy muscles and forced out one beautiful red drop. I let it sit there for a minute before I smeared it onto my fingertip, inspected it visually, and then sucked my finger clean. The flavor was perfectly bloody without being overpowering (it was a very minute amount), just a nice taste of salty iron.

No one in the chatroom complained so I took that to be a good sign.

This MIGHT be my Last Period . . .

So. Tucker/Delia and I decided we want to have a baby so I took my last pill on Saturday night. My period started today so if we manage to get pregnant this month, it will be my last period for a long time. If we *don't* get pregnant right away, I'll have a heavier flow by not being on the pill and will be able to shoot bloodier content.

You win some, you lose some . . . You can keep up to date with the pregnancy "thing" here: FertileTrixie.com. There is a blog there which I'll keep focused on pregnancy-related topics and an option to sign up for my fertility and pregnancy focused newsletter.

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For those of you who are interested, I thought my period was going to start while we were at the gym this morning. I started cramping up as soon as we got there, but I didn't want to cut our workout short so even though I didn't have any pads or tampons, I kept exercising and going to the bathroom often to make sure I wasn't about to bleed through my light pink crotch-hugging yoga pants. I know I should have been more prepared, but it's virtually impossible for me to remember *everything* I need to pack for the gym. Fortunately, the gym provides a little basket with emergency supplies; the only things in it today were three fairly thick disposable pads so I'm glad I didn't have to use one since a) I'd have had an obvious pad bulge in my pads, and b) I don't really like using disposables.

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Those of you who are fans of the members-only area may be wondering when I'll be showing off the period stuff I've been shooting; it's definitely still on my to-do list to re-open and post fresh stuff, but our other sites are / have been more important so BloodyTrixie gets put on the back burner. I know I tell you this all the time, but it's important people realize that it's not simply that I'm too busy to devote time to BT, it's also that I'm loathe to put energy into a website that credit card companies discriminate against with policies restricting the depiction of menstrual fluid. It's a free speech issue, a gender issue, and an issue of corporate discrimination that chaps my bloody hide and SHOULD chap yours, too.

Spring Period

I started flowing on Wednesday (the 21st) a day earlier than I expected; the orgasmic masturbation session I had that afternoon with my new eroscillator I got for my 34th birthday must have kicked out the jams in my uterus. I also wound up with more painful cramps than I've had in quite awhile.

This week has been great, but sort of long and exhausting. We had family over for a number of days; I only had a handful of hours between their departure and the arrival of my period. My muscles are sore from dancing and lifting/carrying my nine month old nephew. I've been dizzy all day. I'm definitely in hermit mode and don't want to see or talk to anyone besides Tucker.

I could really use a massage. This is not a lament because I actually could get one whenever I want since I have three massages paid for (one was a birthday present from when I turned 33 and I still haven't used it). When you're poor (or semi-poor, or even just vividly REMEMBER being poor at one time) you save things that are meant to be used, fearing that to use them is to squander or destroy them. So I think I've been saving this massage gift certificate waiting for the perfect time, feeling like since I can't get massages regularly I should make sure I don't get one when I'm *totally* gimped up. No, I should stretch for a week beforehand so the procedure isn't totally in vain!

This week I realized I really should treat myself since I've been sitting on this gift for a year, but I hesitated to schedule an appointment knowing I'd be having my period and maybe not feeling like having someone pushing on my lower back. And then next week I don't want to schedule a massage because we have a shoot (and tons of work to catch up on) and I know it will just throw everything right back out of wack when I start posing in heels and stuff.