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Tuesday, August 16, 2005


At 10 pm I finished a show, complete with orgasm. As I took off my show clothes and put on cozy clothes, my lower back ached and throbbed which I attributed to not stretching enough. Then I went pee.

Vivid red streaks on my damp toilet paper and a round blob of pussy snot tinted purplish-brown. My period just started.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Hotel Room

We've reserved a hotel room to shoot photos next week on my heaviest-flow days. We'll actually be more focused on shooting Delia, but it will be nice to shoot a set or two of me, menstruating, in a different setting than our house which I get really tired of as a backdrop. Because we have four very different sites to shoot content for, we really get bored with the same rooms, the same furniture, the same greenish-white walls we can't paint because we're renting. A generic hotel room won't cut it either, so we try to find places that are unique. On our current budget it can be tough, but worth it.

I'm a little nervous about scheduling so much work for days when I may be pretty crampy. Poor Delia often has to endure me being a total bitch photographer often enough without adding menstrual cramps to the picture.

Elvis Has Left the Building

My last period started while I was doing a webcam / chat session with members. I'd been having cramps and anticipated my period would start at any moment. Every so often I would perform a diptest, but eventually I got caught up in chat and didn't catch the beginning of the flow until it was already substantial enough to produce a deliciously bright blot of redness on a tissue:

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I wound up keeping the kleenex and letting it dry, then I took some more photos of it so people could see the difference in color between fresh wet fluid, and dry aged flow.

I had SO MUCH FUN taking these pictures, and loved thinking about how some days menstruating can be like big fat Elvis days. Popping pills, laying around . . . sweaty and a living legend of bloated god(dess)like proportions. I enjoyed thinking about the phrase, "Elvis has left the building", and thinking about menstruation in terms of an entity's departure, and the womb as a place or performance venue.

The photos in the members area provide better close-ups of the texture and colors, but I like showing them off in a smaller format here, too.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Charity's Reflections on Period Sex

I found this blog entry via my web stats, and found it interesting:
. . . it's that time of the month, so though I am incredibly horny, we haven't made the time to hop in the shower together for a good fuck so nothing personally sexy to write about.

You know, speaking of that, I was looking at BloodyTrixie.com recently. I don't know what I think about it - I sort of get there and cant take my eyes off of her teasers and get this 'wow that's sort of an icky turn on' sort of feeling deep down inside. It really is one of the last taboos isn't it?

I don't really have a problem with the idea of sex while on my period - there is always the shower afterwards etc. I wouldn't think twice of it to be honest and I am rather kinky and up for almost anything. I do worry about what my husband thinks of it though, he can be a bit more reserved in the bedroom than I am sometimes and isn't really into kinky things for the most part. I think we have maybe had sex, I dunno, 3-4 times at the tail end of my cycle in 9 years of being together and have never really flat out talked about it. Odd, eh?
I think conflicted feelings about our periods, especially in a sexual context, are to be expected. The conflicting feelings are more apparent in a sexual context because there's the uncertainty over how your lover's perceive it. Will they think I stink? Will they resent the mess? Will they go ahead with it even though they don't want to so that they won't hurt my feelings? Would they tell me if they didn't like it? We shouldn't care, but most of us do.

I think a lot of this uncertainty would be remedied by women knowing more about other women's bodies and flows. That the color isn't always bright circus red. That it can be lumpy and bumpy. That we've successfully enjoyed intercourse with men while on the rag and some of them were really enthusiastic (not just tolerant) about it. That it's okay to devote a couple of stained towels in the back of your linen closet to messy sex. That many humans have enjoyed the taste of blood from their own bit lips and wished for a bit more of it, so licking up some slippery aroused menstrual fluid can almost be like a vampiric dream come true. That a man would never give up sex for 3-7 days simply because his dick was leaking fluid, so why should we if we don't want to? That other chick's periods aren't cleaner or prettier than our own.

I kind of like being an "icky turn-on". It's not politically correct, but it's honest and I can't really fault anyone for being simultaneously revolted and intrigued at the same time by me embracing a phenomenon that is so shrouded in myth, shame and a complete lack of accurate, whole visibility.

On the other hand, it shocks me that people are often grossed-out by my free area. I think the few photos I chose (and censored) are extremely tasteful and even cute. I truly don't get it when people see them as icky or extreme or obscene. I wonder if it's not just the bloody panties and tampon strings, but the sight of the words "blood, shit & piss" in the sidebar. Or the fact that I have hair on my pussy and asscrack. Or that I have some belly rolls. Or that I'm assertive about my opinions. Maybe all of those things combine to collide with mainstream society's preference for hypersanitized, hairless, gym bunny porn. I'm sometimes tempted to make a really "glam" red site, where the models are all pretty and airbrushed and hairless and tight, and see if that would make the menstruation aspect more palatable and less offensive.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

New Sidebar Link: Gynotopia

Vatobulo's Gynotopia: What is "Gynotopia"?:
My Gynotopia is not very politically correct. If you're a feminist you might want to stop reading here.
I've been somewhat reluctant to link to this blog, Gynotopia, because I want to make sure people know it's written from the perspective of a male menstruation fetishist, not the perspective of a menstruating woman. And yeah, I'm a feminist and as he himself acknowledges -- it might not be comfortable reading for my ilk.

So why should linking to his blog be problematic to me? It's problematic to me because there are already so many misconceptions surrounding a) menstruation, b) porn, and c) period porn that I am reluctant to usher people unchaperoned towards a perspective that could lead to further stereotyping and misconceptions. I also don't want people to assume that because I link to someone, that I'm giving them some seal of approval or that I agree with everything they say.

On the other hand, fetishists' perspectives and experiences are not only interesting reading, but provoke us to think about HOW these fetishes develop. As women, we may not like the way our bodies and functions are broken down into bits and pieces and processes and waste products (in the case of pads and tampons) and articles of clothing to be hyperfocused on and removed from the context of our wholeness and our own genuine experiences . . . but we also need to be able to put that fetishization into perspective and context to best understand it. Not all fetishists are created equally. Not all fetishists are incapable of putting their fetishes into appropriate, healthy perspectives. Not all fans and curious bystanders are fetishists. And certainly not all women are fetish-free; my own interests in gloves, suspenders, feet, money, belts, white panties, and uncircumsized cocks border on fetishization.

I think everyone's story is important and should be saved for posterity, including the rarely-heard stories of menstruation fetishists. Because Gynotopia's author, Vatobulo, is getting so little feedback to his blog he's not sure if it's worth continuing it. I think it would be a shame if he let it languish for lack of reader response so I'd encourage you to check it out and let him know you are a reader.

He is honest about his perspective and hasn't tried to pass his fantasies off as "reality" (see, for example, his fictional menstrual blog in which he clearly states it is "fake", written by himself from the perspective of a fantasy sister). I greatly appreciate it when people make sure to clearly label fantasy as such, rather than passing it off as fact. It's very important and something I too try to do on my porn sites. As long as we can differentiate fact from fiction and fantasy from reality, I think we all should be free to enjoy our own wild, taboo, imaginative (and even totally offensive) daydreams. I'm sure as hell not in a position to say we're only allowed to have politically correct, inoffensive fantasies . . . my own fantasy life would be almost empty if that were the case.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

A Man's Double Period Fantasy

Here's a menstruation fantasy (actually two) written by a guy (of course): PeeSearch Community - On the rag.

I haven't read the entire thing, but figure some of my menstruation fetish fans will enjoy it.